Just like a penny in the rain.

So lets pretend that the pain i feel everyday, is nothing. lets make believe that life is totally perfect, and i've never been hurt. and lets laugh, like out lives arn't totally and completely screwed up.

I smoke weed cuz dats my only escape from reality.. even if its just temporary..

My heart burns like the fire ripping thru my veins
screaming to let me breathe
but the smoke is so thick its impossible to see...

My life is a mess. It feels scary, but strangely okay.

I need to unravel my messy life. If you do not hear from me, I am working on it. I'll be back...soon.

"do as I say, not as I do" Well you know what. what if i do neither. what is for once i do what i want to do with my life. whether it be living it, or not.

As I put the blade to my wrist, I remember his words, "you're dead to me"

The depression is calling again... I wish I could send it to voicemail.

Everyone is developing cabin fever during this blizzard... I'm fine... I'm used to being alone.