Somewhere in the mix of all confusion, i lost a bit of who i was.

"I think I am afraid to be happy because whenever I get extremely happy, something bad always happens"

I took a few too many pills tonight
in hopes that my pain would become outta sight
instead i almost killed myself
sad thing is, that really woulda helped

My heart is like a yoyo,
one minute hot the next cold
i think my blood pressures beat the record
for the greatest fluctuation yet.
dont know how i feel,
one minute happy the next so sad
im dying someone rescue me from this crazy hot and cold fushes

Ive become a person who cant sleep alone i toss and turn wanting to feel a warm body beside me, with their arms around my waist.

"Forgiveness is harder to come by nowadays..."

"I wish we could erase all those painful memories of each other, I just want to start over."

Can you see all the lies
Hidden deep within my eyes
Cut my tears, set me free
Soon I will no longer be me

-thinking about turning it into a poem-

I feel like i'm suffocating, part of me wants you to save me, and the other part's saying that he doesn't care enough to save you..

I'm not okay. You're not okay. and that's okay.