Its not that I wanted EVERYTHING to change, but I was so torn apart after everything that had happened, that I really just NEEDED things to change.

THis week i see my life falling apart and the more i try the more i fail :( i really need to talk

Depression overwhelms me. Sweeps through my whole body and takes over my life.

I'm lucky, I have everything
So why can I still convince myself to cry?

I've left the old me behind
I've left her in the hollows of my mind
For the charade of a happy girl

Originally written 27-7-2008

I'm loosing myself among all the lies you are saying
What am I becoming?

Orginally written 23-7-2008

I was fine before you walked into my life.

SOMETIMES THE MOST EXCRUCIATING SCARS ARE ONES THAT END UP CAMOUFLAGED.

&& She Finally Gave Up;
She Dropped Her Fake Smile..
As A Tear Ran Down Her Cheek..
She Whispered, "I just can't do this, anymore"..

If You Looked Inside This Girl;
You'd See Just How Much She Really Cries..
You'll Find So Many Secrets && Lots Of Lies..
What You'll See The Most Is How Hard It Is So Stay Strong..
When Nothing is Right && Everything's Wrong..