Its like watching my life from a distance and everyone distroying it

What would you do if the world gave up on you?

..they always say "everybody deserves second chance"..why is it so impossible for me to have it?.can anybody tell me how it feels to have one?.: (

..people say with love comes pain..why do I have to love so much?.

I just want this all over with, i just want a normal life or somewhat happy

& why do I have to put myself in YOUR shoes when you sure as hell won't ever do the same for me?

I could cry. I really could right now. Fortunately or not, I'm anesthetised by emotions I'm dying to feel.

So many things I'm wishing I could do something about yet all I just want is somebody to hold me and say it's alright; my heart is really breaking. I do not know just how much more I can hold on to before letting go.

Everytime I see myself, there's always something wrong with me...

You can't damage my feelings when bits of my heart are already lying on the floor, being stepped on, unnoticed by you...