You DON'T know. You DON'T understand. I am completely empty inside except for anger, self-hatred, and intense pain. You can't fix me. I can't just "Cheer up!"

I should have given up on the world before it decided to give up on me.

& if theres one thing I learned in my life, it's that no matter how hard you fake a smile, or how pretty others tell you you are, it never means a thing, because you remember that the smiles a fake & that you don't feel beautiful at all.

Cover up with makeup,
walk out the doors,
paint on a smile,
and forget all the tears,
show the world just how tough you are.

I close my eyes and lie in bed
so many thoughts race through my head
Is it me or is it you, if it's me what did i do
i think it's you, though i'll never tell
how you make love, a living hell.

Diamonds are tears
rubies are drops of blood
emeralds are the color in my eye
silver is the color of my blade

silver is the color
that makes the diamonds fall down
the rubies to run
and the emeralds in my eyes to glow in pain

I'd rather be numb then feel this pain that is destroying me inside and out.

I dare you.
To not make me cry,
Just for one day.
I dare you.

The girl who seemed so strong-crumbled.
The girl who always laughed it off-cried.
The girl who never stoped trying..
finaly gave up.

I'm going to smile, like nothings wrong, smile like everything is perfect, act like it's all a dream, and pretend that it's not killing me.