They say its not the fall that kills you...
its the sudden stop
and the saddest thing is,i really cant wait
to.hit.the.ground
x

The rope burns have faded
The bruises have healed
It's amazing what a simple smile
These days can conceal

- from my poem 'Never Be the Same'

I'll carve his name into my wrist, fall deeper into my continued sins. It's the only thing that won't let me forget the day he made my life begin.

"I Use To Dream, I Use To Believe. I Tried So Hard To Suceed. But Now, Everything's Changed. Everything In My Life Has Turned A Dark Shade Of Grey,"

I wish you werent so good to me, then i wouldnt be here waiting for you to come home..

I'm hurt like hell, all i'm thinking about is death...

I'm so speechless, right when i was getting happy i was pushed back like always.

I feel ugly. I look ugly. I am ugly. My esteem's just keep going downhill and I'm forcing myself to feel alright, to look alright, TO BE ALRIGHT for the sake of everyone else!

I guess people just don't see how hard it is for me, to pretend nothing ever happen when there's a million diseased thoughts in my head, trying to force themselves out of my mouth that refused to open up and speak.

I'm so sick && tired of being sick && tired..