I want to just stay home today and not bother with anyone, but i know i need to keep doing this stuff of "trying" to get better, when i relize its all hopeless. ughhh

Everyday it pops into my mind i try to fight it , but yet i dont want to live like this, i wanna let go and fly away

I dont understand why your trying now, its weird being with you, im scared, but once again i love you so much, i jsut dont know

No dad you were the one that hurt us and walked out of are life, you cant fix the past , stop your lieing,far from a father, i cant help it my sister wont forgive you, i still cant i block you my pain

Im loosing hope, i wish someday i would have someone thats want me and will be there always

Sometimes I laugh like Im high,
Cry waterfalls of tears,
And scream at no one.
I cant help or explain what its like,
to be bi-polar

I know you're just trying to help, but your guilt trips just drive me further into my self destruction.

I cause myself physical pain so I won't feel the emotional pain you give me...or at least so I can forget about that pain for a little. Anything for a moment of peace.

You always tell me you'll make it up to me...but not this time. im not gonna let you. </3

...And just to let you know, i would be so out of here if i could.