You don't know what its like, TO be kicked, when your down, to feel like youve been pushed aaround. TO be on the edge of breaking down and no ones there to save you, you dont know what its like to be like me.

Nothing and nobody matters anymore because, in a few days, I'm gone.

Everything is just different now. And sometimes I miss the way things use to be.

She needs more than a smile on a Saturday.
Shes not looking for you to fix her up
She really just wants to know she belongs.
She needs more than a love song.

Crying behind closed doors is all I know how to do anymore.

If thoughts could kill...I'd be 6 feet under by now.

My tears dont look real to me anymore...

I've tried my best to be happy
But there is always something pulling me down

Written 1-4-2008

Not looking down at her arm,
In fear of placing yet another scar there.
She places them so carefully you'd think it was a work of art.

Nothing matters anymore. I just don't care.