Depression has me, it still has me now
i'll fight it, won't let it run me over with a plow
It's true it never realy goes away
But it might be less the very next day

I'm going to smile
Like nothing is wrong
Talk like everything is perfect
Act like its all a dream
And pretend all the things you say
Doesn't hurt me

CourtneyxHolland

When you blow out a candle,
It takes a few seconds,
Before it finally dies.

I was just blown out,
And I'm in my last few seconds,
Before I finally die.

** didn't really know how to compare the two, but I like the comparison **

So {cut} my wrists && {black} my eyes
So I can {fall} asleep tonight or {die}
Because {you} kill {me}
You {know} you {do}
{You} kill {me} well
You {like} to do it && I can {tell}
You {never} stop until
My {final} breath is {gone}

I hardly think before I press it to my palm
As I do this my facial expressions stays very calm
Afterwords I hate myself a little bit more
I wrap my bleeding wrists then I slam the door

-from my poem "control"

I hate my insecurity. I hate how I choose to be. I hate all the tears I cry.

But most of all, I hate being me.

Why does everyone hate me when all I want is to be loved

"Depression is not something you can over come...only temporarily push aside."

Everyone thought she was fine..
Everyone thought shed be okay..
But no one saw the non fading lines
& no one saw her break.

When i thought everything was better....everything whent wrong