They say the grass is always greener on the other side,
well if you went to the other side , would that make where you were before look greener now? ?
?
oO
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And here i lay
starring up at the sky above me
wishing my soul could escape there
and leave my lifeless body
beneath me.

I'm tired of pretending...
tears pouring down my cheeks
sleepless nights
full of mistakes and regret
thats the real me.

I feel so cold and empty inside & its all because of you..

Im never cold
because the cold outside is never
a match to the freeze on my insides. :(

Dad; well dont be depressed.
girl; i'll try.

thoughts; WHAT THE HELL ITS NOT SOMETHING I CAN CHOOSE!?

For the first time in a long time i cut again
and for the first time in a long time i felt FREE

I've locked it up
and put it away
then hid the key.
didn't bother to make a map
no one would want it anyway

The blood spills,
I fall to the floor,
my last thought:
I can't take this anymore...

I hardly think before I press it to my palm
As I do this my facial expressions stays very calm
Afterwords I hate myself a little bit more
I wrap my bleeding wrists then I slam the door

-from my poem "control"