I Tried To Act Like It Didn't Happen When I Knew It Was True, I Tried To Act Like I Didn't See It When I Knew It WAs U :(

Do u hate me, then why u keepin viewin my profile everyday.

Take this razor, write you're name across my wrist
so everyone will know, who made me like this.

I'm falling apart and no one can stop it

Working my ass off like there's no tomorrow and staying late nights so I don't get visited by you in my nightmares... those are my only escapes.

The more I tire myself out, the less I think of you.

It's really frustrating for me; to do something right BUT it's against my heart and my belief. It's annoyingly frustrating and painful.

I hate having to be cruel, for my very own sake. & I hate it when my heart has to deal with the practicality of my head (or mind).

I don't know how long more I can take; this emotional and mental fight between my head and my heart.

Do whatever it is you feel like doing, and don't bother to explain, really... I don't need to see or hear to know and believe me, I rather NOT know.

I'm very much disappointed in myself, really... to think that I could have change this boy, who is still stuck in his own past while I'm struggling to keep from drowning in mine.