I hope one day he regrets giving me up

Id rather feel pain then nothing at all cause at least i know im still alive

I wanna die and i know how exactly how to do it

It is the end of something simple and the beginning of everything else

I don't want to do this anymore...im so sick of myself

As i look back i realize that i didn't become a monster i just always was..

I fell... I fell for you, and you let me fall all the way to my death...

No one in this hole wide world knows me...
And only one person has come close...
but now he is gone...

I just want to cry
And cry
to let the pain wash over me
To let the guilt take over me
To sob my sorrows away
To quite being strong
I just want to let go...

Plastic smiles
Heartached spreads
Why is my life hanging on by a thread???