by IdTakeABulletForYou   Jul 12, 2018

I know you'll never say it:
those dreaded words, "Me too",
but I just want, though years have passed,
to say sorry to you.

In truth, I crossed a line that day,
a line I'd never seen.
That crossing cost you from my life,
a price beyond my means.

I've played it over many times,
no pleasure gained, just pain;
from whence, my love and happiness
is only ever feigned.

How was I supposed to know
for you did not dissent?
I was so new to being gay
I knew not how it went.

I took a risk and in I wade,
but found I was too deep.
The love I'd hoped was blossoming
swept from under my feet.

I wonder if you're as ruined
as I am to this day.
Perhaps you suffer, just as I,
though in a different way.

I try to view from where you laid
to see where I went wrong;
perhaps that moment showed a sign
that I'd missed all along.

A sign that friends, but nothing more,
sleep naked in one room...
That I could rest upon your lap
unclothed as in a womb.

My hand outstretched onto your skin
and there lay my mistake.
I can't untouch, I can't unsee,
I can't ever unbreak.

It wasn't until afterward
your fury reared its head.
You stormed off toward the rising sun...
We never spoke again.

In truth: I fell for you like rain
-- a storm relentless, still.
I know that you could say, "Me too"
but that you never will.



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  • 6 months ago

    by Em (marmite)

    Powerful stuff as ever Stephen
    Take care x

  • 7 months ago

    by Paul Hirst

    Worthy of the Win

  • 7 months ago

    by Mark

    Congrats on the win!

  • 7 months ago

    by C Cattaway

    Beautifully relayed. A mistake, yes. A regret? No. We should only ever regret the things we haven't done, not the things we have. Every experience is an experience. Every moment is a made decision. I feel for you, living with this pain. But your story is all the better for it. May that be your silver lining.
    Much love,
    Catherine x

  • 7 months ago

    by Michael


    An open and honest piece, with a great rhyming scheme. A story that tells of your emotions, and very personal.
    Really enjoyed this
    Michael :)

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