The Way I Cope

It’s this familiar feeling
That I have felt before
The same feeling I used to have
Is haunting me once more

Now I find myself thinking
“I don’t want to live this life
It’ll be just so much easier
To just end it with the knife”

Why I’m feeling this way now
I really have no clue
I was convinced that I was better
I had even proved it to you

Now I’ve started all the cutting
The loss of blood each night
No longer do I care to live
I’ve given up the fight

The drugs that I had gave up once
Are back here in my hands
They make me feel so numb and free
But no one understands

And my weak and hungry body
Is no longer healthy and strong
I starve myself everyday
Even though I know it’s wrong

I’m always trying to change myself
But nothing works somehow
Instead I’m getting worse by the day
I’m just terrible right now

I really don’t know what to do
When I have no faith or hope
I know the things I do are wrong
But that’s just the way I cope

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