My soul hates me

I am not living a lie.
It's actually the naked truth.
I cut myself and watched it bleed.
The pain I feel inside is now obvious to everyone.
Watch my body !! it's bleeding.
You say that you can't feel the scars in my heart,
Here they are drawn in my skin.
Can you see them now?
My soul can't bear this agony.
It showed me the way to the razor.
It gave me the pleasure that I ever wanted.
I am shattering in front of you, is that Okay?
No body will feel my pain anyway.
Why should I even try to make you feel it?
I am my deadly mistake, my existence is a sin,
I am worthless and I am so lonely.
Everything in my life hates me and even my all,
My body, my dreams, my heart and my soul.
I fall all over again, but I don't scream for help.
I wish if I could make it my last day.