To Be a Catch

by IdTakeABulletForYou   Jun 4, 2016


I didn't choose this face I wear; I didn't choose this brain.
I didn't choose existence nor my sex nor to be gay.
I didn't choose to be too poor to fix my broken smile;
I didn't choose this world, where I was born, or to be vile.

I'm sorry I'm not perfect, though I try so hard to be.
Everyday I wake up looking at the things that could be me.
Instead I'm forced to see the person that I really am
and wish that I could change it all, although I know I never can.

I know that I'm repulsive -they're the cards that I was dealt-
and no one ever really thought how all their jeers and insults felt,
until you read this, then you realized: hey, that's kinda like me too.
Each person in this world is living in a life they didn't choose.

Yet everyone is shallow, swiping left just from my face
though no one really takes the time to figure if I'm worth the chase.
They look for biological perfection I cannot attain
and leave me here, all by myself, to suffer in this stranger's brain.

Here I am just wishing for a bag atop my head.
It's sad to know to be a catch I'd need a different face instead.
My personality is overshadowed by this ghastly face,
one that I didn't choose to wear and one I never can erase.

I didn't choose my gender and I didn't choose my height.
I didn't choose to be so wrong instead of being right.
I didn't choose these failures I've had since I was a kid.
... but if I chose myself it would be like I never did.

-IdTakeABulletForYou

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  • 7 years ago

    by deeplydesturbed

    Another great one mate.. you had me from the first line to the last..
    Perfect ending. Don't worry, society makes us think we aren't perfect, but we are. We are all perfect to someone out there.. :) Someone willing to look past all the things society tells us to look for.
    :)
    Once again, I love all your work.

    • 7 years ago

      by IdTakeABulletForYou

      Nothing perfect can stay perfect for time ravages us all.

      So what is the purpose of us striving for it, anyway?

      I much prefer being alone, where at least I know those statements ring true, unlike many of the other shallow degenerates who haven't yet figured that out for themselves.

      Sorry my comment took a sour turn lol. I'm gonna go check out some of your works, now!

      Thanks again,

      V/r
      IdTakeABulletForYou

  • 7 years ago

    by Liz

    I thought that last line was the perfect end for the poem. It's so true, if we were to pick and choose how we could look or other aspects of ourselves, well.. we wouldn't be us. And you wouldn't be as awesome as you are lol. Who knows? Maybe you'd be the a-hole that no one likes. Lol I kid. But yeah, this is a relatable poem on many levels. Like Em said, someone will relate to at least one line, myself included. There are a few things I read that I've actually said myself.

    Thank you for sharing this.

    • 7 years ago

      by IdTakeABulletForYou

      I'm glad that this spoke to you, even if only a few lines were relatable. I instantly know the moment I throw the word "gay" into a poem, I lose the relatability from the greater majority of the human population... I can't deny who or what I am though, and that's what I think this poem is coming to terms with. Thank goodness I'm not that incorrigible a-hole everyone hates, though. Many insufferable people on this planet, and sometimes I feel the more confident I am, the more I fall into that trap. Perhaps meekness truly is the secret to treating other humans more positively, and in turn being treated as such yourself.

      Your comments always make my day, whether criticizing or praising! Thank you for the time you give me,

      -IdTakeABulletForYou

  • 7 years ago

    by Marc Ortiz

    I felt the emotions you are currently having just by reading this poem.

    I really like the way you use - - (your dashes) you're the only person to use it efficiently which is nice.

    One thing I did not like in this poem is the constant use of (I's) It adds to the depth of the poem by making it more personal but I think in this poem it was overused and it can sometimes ruin the flow of the poem - In my opinion.

    Yet everyone is shallow, swiping left just from my face
    though no one really takes the time to figure if I'm worth the chase.
    ^ I assume you are referring to a certain app. if yes, then it was really well done. The reason why I like it is because it tells us on how much the world is superficial. And that society is too dense to even try to learn your true personality.

    Here I am just wishing for a bag atop my head.
    It's sad to know to be a catch I'd need a different face instead.
    My personality is overshadowed by this ghastly face
    one that I didn't choose to wear and one I never can erase.
    ^ This adds that society is indeed superficial. Don't worry about this my friend, there will always be that special someone who will like you regardless of all your imperfections.

    The ending felt a bit rushed in my opinion because it didn't have a strong 'last line' But that's probably a good thing. The reason is that it conveys that you do not really care about how this poem will go and that you just want to write your feelings in the moment of time.

    • 7 years ago

      by IdTakeABulletForYou

      Yes, the last line wasn't as striking, but it was very meaningful to me. The last line, "... but if I chose myself it would be like I never did.", insinuates that if I did indeed choose myself, I honestly would not be me. Therefore, I would not be writing this poem, I would not be in this situation, and yet I would also be a completely different person entirely. The last line is supposed to be a subtle mark of appreciation for the fact in having no choice, it is the only way we can exist. If I failed at making the line insightful, I apologize. Any suggestions for a better line would be welcome!

      Thank you for your comment, and for your time most of all!

      -IdTakeABulletForYou

  • 7 years ago

    by Em

    Wow. This is full of so many truths and so much in-depth emotion that I have never read before. Each line will be relatable to one person of another.. Some will be able to relate to many of them.
    Neither one of us is perfect as we all have flaws but to somebody else we are perfectly imperfect.

    All the best Stephen and remember you will be perfect to someone so do not give up.
    Also, I am out of votes so I hope this gets nominated.
    Em

    • 7 years ago

      by IdTakeABulletForYou

      It's the thought that counts, I've never actually won one of those contest things and to me I feel like having close poetic friends, like you three who commented on my poem, to understand and either praise or admonish my work means more than any contest could! Your time is priceless, and so it is that you've given me a priceless gift: thank you for reading, and for always being so supportive here on P&Q! You are a genuinely good person and we need more of you in this world! :)

      Thanks again,
      -IdTakeABulletForYou

  • 7 years ago

    by Ben Pickard

    Hello Stephen

    Just sifting through new poems that have been posted on site and saw this one by you.
    This is brutally honest - even more so if literal obviously - but could almost be held up as inspirational to many too, I would imagine.
    If I were reading this piece and felt like that, I would take a strange kind of heart that it wasn't just me. Simply because feelings like this can so often be isolating and lonely but so many (I have met them) feel like this about themselves.
    I do not know you, but I do see that you express yourself wonderfully and honestly which is something more of us should try to do.
    Keep writing - in my experience, it helps.

    All the very best,
    Ben

    • 7 years ago

      by IdTakeABulletForYou

      Thank you for the time you took to post this! Society sometimes gets me down, and knowing that people understand how I feel is sometimes even more enlightening and unburdening than writing these damn things.

      Thanks again!
      -IdTakeABulletForYou

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