Pills

They say that I am weak,
Cause I need pills to fall asleep-
Wondering how I’m not all right,
And why I don’t sleep at night.

Mind over matter, they say-
Smile. Face the day.
Looking away as I’m crying,
Accusing me of not trying.

Girl, you cannot be fixed,
Wipe your eyes and take this-
Pop these pills and just conform,
Why not cheer up-join the norm?

One after another,
Pill after pill,
Take them all,
Til it’s time to refill.

Yet what they fail to see,
Is the chaos unfolding within me-
Of my mind playing constant terrors,
Full of past and non-existent errors.

Shuddering with shame and fear,
I ponder my reflection in this mirror-
Unable to recognize my own face,
I tremble here alone in disgrace.

Overcome with anxiety,
Sobbing to myself quietly-

I
Am
In
Pieces

Losing my sanity and will,
But they continue to say I’m okay,
Giving me pill after pill.

So I try with all my might,
To let go-put up a good fight-
Craving a chance to smile and be free,
But these demons will not let me be-

My insecurities
Will be the death of me.