by Ren   Apr 11, 2017

They say that I am weak,
Cause I need pills to fall asleep-
Wondering how I’m not all right,
And why I don’t sleep at night.

Mind over matter, they say-
Smile. Face the day.
Looking away as I’m crying,
Accusing me of not trying.

Girl, you cannot be fixed,
Wipe your eyes and take this-
Pop these pills and just conform,
Why not cheer up-join the norm?

One after another,
Pill after pill,
Take them all,
Til it’s time to refill.

Yet what they fail to see,
Is the chaos unfolding within me-
Of my mind playing constant terrors,
Full of past and non-existent errors.

Shuddering with shame and fear,
I ponder my reflection in this mirror-
Unable to recognize my own face,
I tremble here alone in disgrace.

Overcome with anxiety,
Sobbing to myself quietly-


Losing my sanity and will,
But they continue to say I’m okay,
Giving me pill after pill.

So I try with all my might,
To let go-put up a good fight-
Craving a chance to smile and be free,
But these demons will not let me be-

My insecurities
Will be the death of me.


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  • 1 year ago

    by WTF

    So deep and how i feel, you write from the soul and it touches mine.

    • 9 months ago

      by Ren

      I'm glad we could connect :) thanks for reading and commenting!

  • 2 years ago

    by Kelz45

    Wow! An amazing write...looking forward to reading more! Thank you

    • 2 years ago

      by Ren

      Thank you so much!! I appreciate you taking the time to read and comment :)

  • 2 years ago

    by mossgirl19

    I did miss this one. I loved it dear Cowgirl... Awesome write.

    • 2 years ago

      by Ren

      Sweet lady! I'm so sorry I missed this comment. Thank you so much!! You know how much your words mean to me :)

  • 2 years ago

    by mysticalpisces

    Added to favourites!!

    • 2 years ago

      by Ren

      Wow! Thank you sooo much!!!

  • 3 years ago

    by Em

    Woah !!

    • 3 years ago

      by Ren

      Thanks for reading :)

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