Future Unknown

Will the future
be fair to you
my sweet grandsons?
Will it grant
you a life
with little pain?
Will it show
you Grace and perseverance
if the road
becomes rocky?
If the days
become dark?
Life has a way
of throwing us curveballs
a time and again-
We wonder why
we question life-
Why us?
Bad luck of the draw
mutated genes
crossing generations
random hits and misses...
"Don't borrow trouble"
they always say-
Can't help the worry
can't help the sadness
in my heart
knowing the pain and guilt
my girls
are feeling...
These boys, their babies
made in love,
carried in their bodies,
pushed out into the world
with both pain and joy
the future
a blank slate
of possibilities...
Now everything is unknown -
Every MRI, every blood draw,
hold your breath
waiting on results...
Every growing pain,
every stumble and learning issue
could be this disease
rearing its ugly head,
letting us all know
it's there, simmering under the surface
waiting to hit hard.
I say my prayers,
asking for forgiveness,
asking for time to be granted
before this disease
strikes hot.
To spare these beautiful boys
to spare my daughters
a life of pain and sorrow...
It's all I can do
attempting to control
a situation
that has no rules
its outcome unknown
no-one wins at this,
no-one walks away....