Tired...

Tired… sleepy… nothing left to motivate me…
Lazy… exhausted… a whole in my chest that won’t leave…
I don’t know what to call it or how to explain,
But it’s both so easy, yet so hard to get past that pain…
I can’t always put it to words, so I hope someone can hear,
When I play those notes on the keys of pianos that I love so much.

Three years and some odd days…
The day I lost someone close… someone who’s hugs I so yearn for,
Who’s company I will forever miss…
At some point, I hope to see them again,
But who knows if I ever will
If I ever do,
I wouldn’t doubt it if I cried for a while…

I still don’t fully know who I am, and honestly it scares me sometimes…
But if I try my best to love myself, I think I might be fine…