Dangers caused inside

I want to let my years
steam down my fragile face
i want to scream as if I've never screamed
from all the things i hate

but these tears cant seem to find
a way to run, escape
from my frightened mask
as my body starts to shake

shaking caused by fears
scared of the unknown
can i trust myself?
when I'm left home alone

I'm trying so hard to smile
in the best way i can
but it doesn't seem to show
who's here to hole my hand?

you say I'm looking down
my eyes are filling up
but when I'm left alone
will i resort to cuts?

Ive conquered this before
yet it seems to return
is there a cure out there
that i just have to learn

my side now covered from
scars in which once helped
now i feel ill when i catch site
reminding me how i once felt

that feeling is begging
to re-seep into my mind
so how do i stop myself
from dangers caused inside