Screaming into silence

I feel as if I'm screaming
in a room filled with silence
yet no one around notices
as i turn to violence

maybe they notice, yet ignore
my painful pleas for help
or maybe they just don't care
how my soul slowly melts

maybe I've already vanished
from all vision of those around
and really my endless screams
don't make a single sound

or could it be my mind
is playing tricks again
am i really screaming?
or can i just not take the pain

if this is all an illusion
from the reality of life
then whys my throat, oh so sore
and there's blood on my knife

its dripping now and stinging
another scar to hide
why cant i let them fade away
instead of adding to my side

where are you to stop my tears
of crimson and of salt
why aren't you here to hold me tight
instead you watch my every fault

don't worry, the pain has stopped
as numbness begins to spread
now i can sleep throughout the night
without this screaming in my head