The girl trapped in my mirror

This overwhelming pain
no longer lets me feel
just numbs my fragile body
from all emotions so real

countless nights awake
thoughts streaming through my head
ideas how to escape
from this wishing i was dead

trying to remember
how to enjoy and smile
but all my thoughts lead back to you
an' how I'd go that extra mile

then i am reminded
of the rows everlasting
just wish for them to end
so i will stop this fasting

fasting not religious
but a temporary way out
from this ache and pain
inside my heart full of doubt

as i look into the mirror
i am scared of the reflection
a mix of scars, hurt and hate
catches my attention

i don't want to be her
that girl trapped in my mirror
happiness and freedom i wish for
but of that not even a glimmer