Invitation to Bloody Nights

I cannot describe
The pain I feel
Because I know
I will never heal.

Eyes wide open
I shut my door
Hoping I can’t
Hear them anymore.

My eyes are now shut
So I can’t see
The frightening images
Waiting to terrify me.

I bite my tongue
I still hear them shout
I heard glass shatter
And mother yelling, “Get Out!”

I taste blood
The sweetness, I surrender
Down on my knees,
I say it will be remembered.

I favor the bitterness
As I suck the blood.
Yet my teeth are soaked
In crimson mud.

I feel the stinging
Now my tongue grows numb
This is the reason for my being.
I am having way too much fun.

The pain is lifting
No please stay!
Never mind, go if you will,
I have another way.

The knife, the knife!
Or the blade, the blade?
Oh, it doesn’t matter
Because both into darkness I will fade.

Cheers!
To this bloody night,
Tomorrow will be just as fun
And it will be quite a sight!

So every night I invite you
To my wonderful life.
Now you can laugh at me
Whenever you like.