Hopeless search

Sometimes i just wonder as the world flies by me
sometimes i want to be the one that can fly
now and again i remember how i used to be
then I'm reminded how tears now fill my eyes

as everyone carries on in their own ways
i question why i cant, whats wrong?
every time i try to break through sadness
the frown remains, it has been here too long

my mind so far out of reach but the roots search on
trying to explain, to understand my world
in a daze, a bubble from the human race
i don't want to be just another girl

i want the people i know to remember me
as someone happy, whole, hopeful
but keep slipping further down this track
keep letting myself stay miserable

are there any answers to the questions
constantly swimming through my mind
i feel so lost, alone, shiver from cold
longing for someone to see, bring sight to the blind

but they cant understand these feelings
as i cant explain them, the words never right
so i end up saying I'm fin, not to worry
and wish for answers to appear in my sight

confusion so dense, a fog around me
i cant break down this heavy brick wall
what are my faults? how can i change?
please, give me strength to stand up from the fall

i need to find the solutions
so I'm free from this circle i call life
but where do i start? please give me a clue
how can i put a full stop to this strife

the circle keeps turning as normal
at the top, a short phase of good
but from then on its down hill and struggle
in my cold heart rotting like wood

the happiness never lasts as long as it should
always missed like a distant friend
for now the tears fall soundlessly
as i search for answers i need to mend

*I'm really not sure about this, any suggestions would be appreciated xXx*