Frozen Inside

There's a darkness inside, always growing
i slept their silently be-nine, not knowing

i feel like i am a fool, for the world to see
why don't they stop staring and let me be?

This is my lashing out; my restless retribution
my legacy left; before the institution

darkness inside; i carried on never knowing
can they see inside? it has to be showing?

i walk around on to see black and gray
will i ever get better? my parents say "someday"

i want to be able to be like before, to give a care
so i let my heart open up; this is my cross to bare

so now i Sit in my room, silent, without a peep
it has me now into my room it did creep

the darkness is my companion; in this room I'll stay
I'll stay alone in this room because the light sneered away

in the room i will stay, ill-begotten
i sit here not known that I'm forgotten

i buy things with the money i get
i look back now with so much regret

so i sit in this room that people would kill to have
but to be like them, i would give up all i have or had

the darkness is fear, is really quite sad
it consumes my life and it always has.......