Cheers To My Death

by Andrea   Apr 6, 2005


Here I lay on the bathroom floor,
My cries still echo, but I do not care.
I want to run away and die.

No one would miss me,
So really it wouldn’t be selfish.
I want to be gone.

I just feel so much pain
And it still won’t go away.
I want to cut and cut and cut.

There is blood all over my arm.
I don’t think it is deep enough.
I want to scream my heart out.

My face is damp and smothered in black.
The mirror tells me the truth.
I want to use myself as a punching bag.

Please, will someone kill me now?
I am already at the edge.
I want to you to push me.

My mind is becoming more suicidal.
I hear my dad calling for me.
I want him to burn in hell.

When I am gone, so many will be satisfied.
They won’t care since its what they want.
I want to them to be happy.

I guess I won’t make it to prom.
That’s okay; I don’t think he even likes me.
I want nothing from this life.

I cannot move from this floor.
My tears and blood have been mixed.
I want to die before he comes.

I don’t think I can take another night.
No not again…please not again.
I want to be strong.

I fooled all of you. I am weak.
Don’t you see I can’t handle this?
I want you to still love me.

I failed. I am a failure. Worthless.
Even my mother says so it must be true.
I want to fade and disappear.

I’m sorry there are no rhymes.
I’m just writing down my thoughts.
I want to say I’m sorry to all of you.

This blade I grasp so tight,
It’s talking to me. I know what it wants.
I want to cut deeper.

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  • 18 years ago

    by Soft Rain

    Awsome poem but keep strong:).Very talented and have alot to live up to and for.Dont give up now,dont give up.

    -Claudia

  • 18 years ago

    by Bleeding_Red_Fallen_Angel

    All I can say is wow. You are such a great writer I hope I can write like you one day. >3jess

  • 18 years ago

    by ღ.:Krissy:.ღ

    Andrea, please don't hurt yourself! You are not a failure! I really wuv you, and I know so many others do too! Please be strong and don't let that stupid knife get to you! Please..

    I wuv you! <3

    ~Krissy

    *hugs*

  • 18 years ago

    by Michael D Nalley

    I gave this poem a five not because i agree with its content but because i believe the poem did what it was designed to do. there is no such thing as a worthless person but if their were im sure you would be among the last on that list all we can do is pray and try to show we care

  • 18 years ago

    by Taylor

    Andrea! i'd miss you so much and you should know that! don't listen to that damned blade! i'd miss your poems and your thoughts! remember BIG HAIRY MONKEY NUTS so you can have a BIG SMILE! :-D hehe! this is great and i love that you wrote your thoughts! but remember I love you! so keep it up!

    Love, Taylor