Last Night

by Torn   Nov 9, 2005


I cut last night,
Nice and deep.
It had been so long,
But I was so weak.

Everything was going wrong,
And I thought of my best friend.
Hoping she could be there,
My broken heart she would mend.

But she's not around,
And I've lost my way.
Scared that another,
Had gone astray.

I pushed her away,
And I needed her most.
The things I do,
I definitely can't boast.

My father was suicidal,
My mother was angry at me.
All the hatred I felt,
I just didn't want to be.

I thought seriously about leaving,
Because this life is nothing.
But when I tried to do it,
I felt I didn't have to be suffering.

Now I only feel shame,
Of the pain I made myself feel.
This scar will cause many more,
And time that I don't have to heal.

So please if you're out there,
Take my pain away.
Please tell me things will be ok,
Please tell me you will stay.

I'm sorry for this cut,
For I know you will break down.
I can't believe I did it,
I didn't mean to make you frown.

I'm so sorry for being me,
This is my fault I know.
This black is engulfing me,
I need something to see me through.

*the shame and guilt i feel right now is unexplainable. I seriously hadn't cut for months...i hate myself for falling so low again.
Just a really bad night i guess..
please comment and rate xoxox

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  • 18 years ago

    by Nearly but not quite

    Don't worry, nobody can blame you, at least you tried, you managed to stop, some people don't even get that far! Amazing poem anyway, keep writing!
    Luv Helen xxx

  • 18 years ago

    by LostSoul

    Wow. This is truly amazing. But you shouldn't be upset, from what I see you have a lot of friends to cheer you up just look at all these comments. Gosh, this is really great poem, and I am stunned. But...Yeah

  • 18 years ago

    by *~*pureconfusion15*~*

    Hey gurl!... i reallyl ike this poem and wen u feel like your at your lowest point and theres noone tot turn to .. you feel the knife is your only friend and you tell youself your not going to do it but u end up doing it anyway... and then after words they are no longer scars of pain they're scars of embarassment.. and you dont want anyway to see bceasue ur afraid of what they'll say and your ashamed of yourself because u lied to yourself!.. but u know the knife is only ur best friend for a little while and it does no gud!! and if you seriously feel like you cant take it nomore and theres noone there then write me or gimmie a call and i'll help you get through it!!!... hells knife is what i call it and ITS A TEMPTATION NOT A DESIRE!
    luv u!!!!.... Kelly

  • 18 years ago

    by morgan

    I really like it alot i can understand it i go through that all the time aswell its hard not do it yet its so easy to do it

  • 18 years ago

    by HidingThePainInMe

    Hey hun
    I cant say I know how you feel, because I am not you. But I can relate to it. Ive been cutting for 4 years, and its so hard. I always say I'll stop. But.. its what I know and how U deal with it. The reason Im here today, is because I know theres people I'd be hurting if I left..

    if you ever wanna talk, my email is

    mmsaint666@hotmail.com

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