Je Ne Sens Rien

Staring at an empty screen,
Like a window to my heart.
Blank, mundane and bleak,
Like my world torn apart.

Nothing in front of me,
Road deserted with several turns.
No future to forsee,
Only signs of self-inflicted burns.

I can't take this much longer,
There's too much burden on me.
It's heavy and it's taking a price,
On who I am and what I see.

What's the point of staying strong,
When it's so easy to give in.
I know it's weak and wrong,
But you don't feel what I feel within.

Whenever I see happiness,
I tend to push it away.
But with you it was different,
I thought that you would stay.

And as I lay here all alone,
The thought runs through my head.
Wouldn't it be easier,
If I were to be dead?

To live for friends and family,
As ungrateful as this may seem.
I've spent too long picking others up,
I'm ripping at the seams.

No one who would care enough,
To hold my broken soul.
No one who would stay long enough,
To just make me feel whole.

No one to wait long enough,
To hear my desperate calls.
No one to love me enough,
To save me from closing walls.

No one but me and myself,
The biggest danger of all.
There's no security, no hope,
To catch this deadly fall.