I am giving up

The pain runs through my blood,
the tears roll down my face,
my legs start to weaken,
i am giving up on life's race,

my heart has shattered to the floor,
with too many pieces to put back together,
but everyone will be happy,
once i am gone forever,

my soul is diminishing,
my spirit sunken low,
my breath slowing down,
but i won't let it show,

my smile fading fast,
my eyes losing their twinkle,
my broken heart losing more glow,
from my mouth you won't hear a giggle,

my face turning white,
my life disappearing,
right in front of your eyes,
but it just proves i am good at acting,

should i give up,
should i fight,
but fighting to me,
anymore doesn't seem right,

why fight every time,
just to lose,
trust me you'd feel the same way,
if you were in my shoes,

loves going away,
me and my family having a distance.
it is like i am on the balance beam,
but begin to lose my balance,

like doing a kart wheel,
getting half way then falling,
all i want,
is to stop my bawling,

i don't know what to do,
my problems i can't cope,
and i am beginning,
to lose all hope,

god is here i know he is,
i know he cares but with my problem he can't help,
but from my mouth,
you won't hear a help yelp,

i will keep shut,
and had from this world,
a beaten up person,
a beaten up .. little girl,

life changing to fast,
time passing by,
they say goodbye,
before i can say hi,

giving up,
running away,
plus I've drilled in my head,
there is no other way....................

by,Denysia Chapman-Madden