The Story of a Confused Girls Life

When she was five
Her Mum and Dad split up
She doesnt remember much
Except for not understanding

Shes ten now as she smiles
Watching her Daddy get married
To a woman she doesnt know
But is now the woman she calls her Step-Mum

Its her Mums turn now
Marrying a man with two daughters
Those two girls become her Step-Sisters
She grows to love them like real sisters

She finds out shes going to be a sister
Well a half-sister that is
Her Dad wont be just hers anymore
She has to share him with her baby brother

Argue, argue, argue
Thats all she ever hears
At her Mums house, at her dads house
Its starting to hurt her ears

Mum gets a divorce
She loses her two Step-Sisters
Who gives a f**k about her Step-Dad
He never cared about her

Her Mum is hurting
But she cant seem to care
She doesnt love her mum anymore
Her Mum is unaware

Dad keeps arguing with her Step-Mum
She is left alone to look after her little brother
She feels she has no choice
Shes only 15, she doesnt know what to do

She finds happiness and love in him
She wanted him forever
But she f**ks up, again
He is gone and she misses him

Everyday he is on her mind
No one understands what she sees in him
He cared when no one else did
She thought he loved her like no one else did

again she was wrong
He moved on, but she cant
Shes tried so many times
Its too hard, she loves him always

Mum has a new boyfriend
She doesnt like him much
He is abusive and makes her feel unsafe
Mummy doesnt understand

She goes to live with her Dad
Mum gets rid of her boyfriend
But still sees him behind her back
She is hurting so much

Back living with her Mum
She is silently going insane
Nobody sees her for who she is
Shes scared and lonely

Shes recommended to get professional help
She doesnt want it
She breaks down
She cant breathe

Life is too hard
She tries to give up
Daddy saves her
But she didnt want to be saved

Shes playing it by day
By hour, by minute, by second
Its too f**king hard
Shes slowly dying

No one sees her pain
She is so alone
She is hurt beyond repair
No one can help her now

She is living a lie
A life full of fake smiles
A life full of hidden tears
A life full of confusion..

By Loren McCormack

4th March 2007