You were born closefisted as saying "i will get everything in this world"
but you will die open-fisted and bring nothing to the other world.

I am choking in this boredom,
the walls are clamping me.
to the other world i have a ticket.
someone shall come and save me,
before i kick the bucket.

You want an honest answer, OK then. I'm not OK, i haven't been for a long time. As a matter of fact I want nothing more than, even on good days, to end my life.

"Even though you are dead...I still wish it was me instead."

Despite how I feel and despite what I've said, I know in my heart there are no regrets for the dead.

I'm sinned in the morning, cursed during the day, then killed at night.
I awake with mourning, evaded by say, then I suffer blight.

Truth is, You're the only person I've ever met who had the ability to make me that happy, and now make me want to die this much. Thanks.

I wish when I said goodbye, I knew it was goodbye forever.

6 feet under, that`s all it takes..
and all the pain is gone.
no one has anything bad left to say, but a million good things they wished they could tell you.
6 feet under they think anyone would be lucky to have you and suddenly, you are loved.

My fate is sealed.
I am to die...

(from ''Fate is sealed'' take a look?)