I hope it's worth it...
When you stand on my grave...
And know you did this...

I'm afraid of losing something I love.. that I refuse to love anything.

It's high school.
It's the time for mistakes and broken promises.

Everything is always my fault, in your eyes. And yeah, sometimes it is my fault. But not ALL the time.

And even if one day, I do accomplish something major; would you change? I don't think you ever will.

Thank you for breaking my heart.

And I'm always looking for acceptance from you. Just hoping that someday you might improve. But you never do. You never do...

And you would think that you telling me that I cannot accomplish anything would make me want to just prove it to you. But, I don't have the confidence to even try. How can I have confidence in myself if no one believes in me?

How can you still be with someone who can never apologize for things he says to me? Things that make me cut. How can you be with someone who sees me cutting and doesn't stop me?

Mom, how can you STILL be with someone who tears me down when I need to be brought up? And someone who told me, "Well, just kill yourself then." When I said I wanted to die.