This thing im in is toxic, im not dumb to realise, someone end me now before i do it myself.

I just don't know what i'm supposed to do anymore..

I woke up one mornin n he wznt by my syd ... as i got outta bed i found a folded note under his pillow wich sed "i wish i could love u da way u did bt sadly shez waitin fr me n i cant keep her waitin cz she iz da love of my lyf" ...

Im sick and tired of takin sleepin pills - y doncha understand it's U who can put me 2 sleep nt da pillz !

Im sorrie dat i failed u - bt u never cared how ive bn since u left me ...

I want to run away from all my troubles, and leave this life behind. And I'll be nothing but a whisper in the wind.

I may look like I just don't care, but I'm crying a river inside.

People are gonna disapoint you in your life, I get that, but what happens when you wake up one morning and find that your the disapointment.

People say there is a reason for everything: every loss, every joyful moment. everything.. but what is it. because I can't find it in my <3 to believe so.

...There Is A Reason For every Tear, Every Cry. There Is Confusion Hidden Inside, There Is Aching Inside My Heart. There Are Lies, That I Choose To Deny.