Just when I think I've overcome it
I fall back into the abyss

Originally written 31-3-2008

Force a smile, force a laugh, fall to the floor, close the door.

I'm Too Weak To Smile,
Please, Help To Set Me Free,
I'm Too Scared To Be,
The Real Me.

Alone I Weep,
Forever I Seep,
Deeper Into These Dark Wounds.

Yea Im broken.
So what, its not like anyone cares enough to fix me.

Yea Im mad.
So what, its not like anyone cares enough to calm me down.

Yea Im crying.
So what, its not like anyone cares enough to hold me until I stop.

Sometimes we prefer the darkness
because in the darkness we only see
what we choose to see

Forever doesn't last can we quit this illusion that it does!

I dont want to talk about this weekend its over and im back to being me

Just because I havn't fallen to the floor it doesn't mean I am still standing strong.

To sleep,
To toss and turn,
Hoping not to dream tonight
In the grips of horrible nightmares,
Wishing not to have to sleep,
For once praying not to see your face