Give me a break from reality

I'm just a shadow in the background
~~~From my poem Old Self~~~

Lonely and forgotten.
Incomplete and sad.
Slowly losing sanity.
Slowly going mad.

Sometimes wishes don't get heard, and dreams don't come true

Slowly dying, dying to live...
"I miss myself," she says...

Slipping, falling, fading faster. Yet still I can't remember what it is I'm after...

Don't let the tears of your past
flood your future

DON'T CHOKE ON THE SECRET TEARS THAT YOU KEEP INSIDE,
LET THEM OUT,
AND FORGET WHY THEY WERE THERE,
LET THE BREEZE CARRY THEM AWAY,
ALONG WITH YOUR PAST
AND ALL THE PAIN IN IT

&. We all seem to have it together,
But they never see what's hiding underneath,
We hide it from those who know us best,
We seem OK but self doubt is all we habour.

When I write in my journal I feel like Im writing a novel about a stranger; "One Girls Demise to Insanity".