Lying on the bathroom floor,
In a pool of blood,
Wanting nothing more
Than to die in this flood.

How many times can my heart be hurt before it finally brakes
How many times can i cry before my eyes go dry
How many times will i hear I Love You before i finally believe it
How many times will i try to commit suicide before i'm finally dead

Lets play a game,
lets play pretend,
im perfectly fine
and nothings wrong,
just so maybe,
just maybe
you wont hurt me
anymore </3

Mother, mother, are you there?
Can you hear me, do you care?
I feel you here, in the despair!
Mother, mother are you there?

(From a poem I wrote)

Just when you think it is all going to be okay You are lifted high above then you ever were, you get thrown back down and it hurts more then ever

Pain Clouds Her Eyes
Dark Thoughts Creep Into Her Mind
Reaching Out For Something To Hold Onto
Something So ImpossibleTo Find

Darkness Flows Within My Veins
The Blade Presses To My Skin
Hiding Behind A Mask Of Pain
Fighting A Battle I Cannot Win

Im going to bed. My head hurts, my eyes hurts. Most of all im so sad and im numbing myself from my life.. i just want to pretend!!!!!!!!!

Now letz play pretend, so i can get on with my life , and tell everyone im fine, and hid everything i feel , so i cant be hurt

I hope there proud, my family got me scared against talking. I can feel myself shutting down. I just cant be strong much longer.