I am at my breaking point. I feel like after all of these years of being happier and without cutting, I feel like I am going to go back down that road again. And there is no one to hold me back. I feel like blowing my brains out.

Your eyes stay lit but the darkness is taking over. You seem near but your so far away. Too far away. You were always my best friend. Still are. I guess I'm just losing you. Or have I already lost you?

I used to know you like the back of my hand... Now i cant even recognize it...

Scars and cuts
cuts and scars
how do you know me
only by what you see on me

"I don't want to be alone...but being alone is when I'm truly myself..."

The worst part of cutting is knowing the pain that others can feel, and not caring they do.

If i died, i wonder if anyone would even notice i was gone...

Can anyone even hear me screaming and crying at night?

Never give in and never back down.

My head is spinning my heart is pounding the world is spinning feels like I'm drowning...