And I'm always looking for acceptance from you. Just hoping that someday you might improve. But you never do. You never do...

And you would think that you telling me that I cannot accomplish anything would make me want to just prove it to you. But, I don't have the confidence to even try. How can I have confidence in myself if no one believes in me?

How can you still be with someone who can never apologize for things he says to me? Things that make me cut. How can you be with someone who sees me cutting and doesn't stop me?

Mom, how can you STILL be with someone who tears me down when I need to be brought up? And someone who told me, "Well, just kill yourself then." When I said I wanted to die.

And I don't tell you most of the things that go on in my life, or things that I want to do. Because you will just shoot them down. Just as fast as the words come out of my mouth.

Many of my issues of lacking self-confidence and happiness and motivation comes from you telling me that I can't do anything right. And you haven't had confidence in me for as long as I can remember.

If only you knew that the reason why I give up is because you bring me down...

(sung to im a little teapot)

Im a little emo
dark and black
here is my music
here is my knife
when i get all depressed
hear me cry
cut my wrist
and bleed me out

There's so much more, and you'll never understand the half of it. And it's probably best you don't; it would hurt you.

I'm done. I just want to down a bottle of pills and unplug.