Im on the verge of breaking down again. But this time, I wont get back up.

Numb...
I miss it.
Not caring, not feeling-
Just a comforting embrace
Of complacent illusions
Telling yourself-
It doesn't really matter,
In the end..
That you are better off
Alone.

So lets pretend that the pain i feel everyday, is nothing. lets make believe that life is totally perfect, and i've never been hurt. and lets laugh, like out lives arn't totally and completely screwed up.

Every tear drop that falls, traces down to my lips. I can then taste the bitterness of my pain
~ Liz ~

Goodbye my almost lover, goodbye my hopeless dream, I'm trying not to think about you - can't you just let me be? So long my luckless romance, my back is turned on you, should've known you'd bring me heartache - almost lovers always do.

I know it seems like I'm this strong person who can get through anything, but inside I'm fragile. I've had so many things thrown at me, and each one has only made a crack. What I'm afraid is shattering.

The question isn't who's going to let me, it's who's going to stop me.

"I need someone to hear these silent cries."

Im broken with a smile
ill put on a show
and you wont know

It is a truth universally acknowledged that the moment one area of your life starts going okay, another part of it falls spectacularly to pieces.