"I live for everyone but myself."

It's so sad how I'm about to burst into tears, and I don't want to live anymore yet everyone thinks that I'm perfectly fine; they don't care enough to look past the fake smiles and see the pain in my eyes....

Put the knife to my pale white skin
Red pours out, erase my sin
Scars that stay, wounds that don't heal
Just look at how I've learned to deal...

:to tell you the truth, i haven't been avoiding you.. just my life.

How can I mourn when I promised you I'd be happy? For the first time i'm breaking my promise

I'm too high now, I'd die from the fall.

It's everything short of a suicide.

I may be leaving today.
I may be disappearing in the mist of myself
I'm sick of being yelled out, sick of feeling like a screw up...
but hey, maybe that is me after all,
stupid and a screw up...
sorry mom and dad i let you down.

Ah, Depression. how recognizable your presence is. buried too deep within. i can't lose you, without losing the rest of myself.

"Just because I'm breathing doesn't mean I'm alive."