I try and try my best, but it just doesn't seem good enough.

Even in my dreams....
you never love me....

"I walk with only one eye open, because a part of me will always be in the dark."

So I'll laugh away the pain, and dry the tears from my eyes - knowing i'll never be good enough no matter how hard I try.

God, I think I'm going crazy
Maybe it's better than staying sane
But please don't ask me why
If there's a bullet in my brain

-thinking of making it into a poem-

Can you see all the lies
Hidden deep within my eyes
Cut my tears, set me free
Soon I will no longer be me

-thinking about turning it into a poem-

I wish there are a restart button on life.... I could change everything.

What if by yes I meant no?
What if by stay I meant go?
What if I don't live to please you?
What if for me it isn't that easy?

She cuts,
But no longer feels.
She cries,
But sees no tears.
She hopes,
But disappiontment fills her heart.
She loves,
But only hurts.

Right now, i feel if i were to end it, the world wouldn't stop in the slightest.