You Don't Know What It's Like To Be Your Own Best Friend

You think I'm OK,
but behind my door
is a girl with a blade
who cant take anymore

From my poem girl with a blade,
please v/c ill return the favor
love mel

When im depressed i hold it in but wat if it goes too far.........

If beauty was a drug...I'd never be High

I'm sick of pretending that i'm ok.
i lie to everyone saying that i'm fine..
but i'm not and no one cares that
inside i'm dying and losing control!

I'm a daughter hiding my depression. I'm a sister making a good impression. I'm the girl sitting next to you. I'm the one asking you to care. I'm you're best freind hoping you'll be there

Do you know how hard it is to wake up every morning feeling useless and thinking about the one you love waking up next to someone else

But you still love them and wish them the best because you really care for them and love them no matter what.

Even if i did tell you you still wouldnt listen or understand

'Starvation is control..
Control is rough..
Starvation is beautiful..
But thin will never be enough..'

A lonely girl sits in her room
the thoughts & memories are still
in her head. the very last words to
her he said "i think we're better off
as just friends." while she's thinking
"i think i'm better off dead.."