Teddy Bear

You are a star shining brilliantly
far away in sky,
a distant image of beauty to adore.
You are no longer a star, light-years away.
you are my teddy bear
able to stroke, a companion to my heart.
my comfort and my friend.

You are no longer my teddy bear
held tight in my embrace.
you are my master, my puppeteer
pulling my strings at your will,
your pleasure over mine.

You are no longer my master
controlling my movements, my thoughts.
You are my disease, the ailment of my soul.
plaguing my mind, body and soul.

You are no longer just my disease,
you are my death.
You have stripped life out of its heartbeats
and severed my identity
from my childish innocence.
You pushed me beyond my years,
I wasn’t complete.
You
cornered me on a cliff
and
I
jumped,
from you.