Years of horrendous abuse,
I was never good enough -
nor was anything I did for you.
I was charmed by a Prince
yet I gave my life to a brute.
I quit college because you said
"you're not smart enough" and
the children's book edit I wrote
was torn by your knobbly fingers,
no use crying in front of you as
you'd have tortured me more.
I lost long friendships because
of you making me cancel plans,
always. It was either that or you
came aswell and you'd belittle me.
Now, today, a day I've been waiting
for since we signed off our "I do's"
and soon I will be rid of you forever.
You don't like losing control but it's
tough as angels can and will be reborn
but monsters only get their comeuppance.
You have more strength than you ever thought and your life will only get better. Abusers need to control to feel good about themselves. They will never have the real love or happiness that is comes from genuine love and respect. Congratulations on breaking free and knowing that in the end you won. Well done. Much love Milly x
Strength is the first word that came to my mind while reading this. and i think i connect to this poem so well because although i don't know the pain you are going through, i understand the abuse and the belittling of myself. This is a simple but effective poem because you don't hold back your feelings what so ever, and that's something i personally love reading.
Years of abuse and belittling have broken you down and reduced you to feeling nothing at all, almost sub human. You were in love with this person and you were going to get married.
You were forced to quit everything you loved because of the feeling of fear and rejection. You lost all of your friends because of it. The weaker you showed him the more pain you would feel inside and out.
It took years but finally you are overcoming what you went through with this person. Whether it be jail time, or just whatever it is.
I love how you call yourself an angel because that is a positive step forward to healing, we are survivors no matter what.
I am glad you got to get this poem out and you are being reborn again. I wouldn't change anything about the poem itself, as to me it flowed well.