I Am Invisible

If I were gone
No one would notice
For I am invisible
Even when someone looks at me

If I were happy
Would it be better?
Would someone hear my voice?
Would someone know that I am here?

Not much crosses my mind
But when I see happiness
I wonder how it feels
If that’s what makes a person want to live

I try to find deep inside myself
But all I feel is emptiness
And the reason to die even stronger
I wonder if I can go on any longer

Once I had this world
But now I have lost it all
I cannot remember how to smile
Or even laugh

I cannot cry
Crying is useless
No one hears me cry
No one hears me yell

If tomorrow I wasn’t there
I wonder if anyone would notice
Maybe someone would look behind them
And know I am nowhere to be found

If I died
I wonder if someone would cry
Maybe they would feel guilty
And wish they had helped me

If someone actually cared
I wonder if that would stop me
Maybe I would not feel so much pain
But it’s a waste of time to dream

Tomorrow when I am not there
No one will care
No one will notice
Everyone will go about themselves

But when someone feels my pain
And not happiness anymore
Maybe they’ll think of me
Wondering if I actually found happiness