Am I lost?

I remember it well
The very first time that I saw
Your face full of love
I had no choice but to adore
I long to feel your hand
See the smile you once had for me
Feel the way you touch
But it was not meant to be
I want to be someone else
So we can talk again, be friends
I want you to call but not recognise me
So what we had doesn’t have to end
Want you here tonight
I want away from this fight
To feel outside this emptiness
Escape my darkness back to the light
Come and save me from these feelings
Save my sanity from me
Wrap your loving arms around us
And make us safe as we can be
So without you in my life anymore
Am I lost or am I alone?
Am I struggling with the black?
Am I staring at the phone?
Remembering when it lit up with your name
Wanting to know what you want now
To see who makes you smile like that
How did we get to this point, how!
I let you down when I left
I know I did it all wrong
And when you said that you’d move on quick
I knew you were strong
I underestimated my feelings
And how deep they ran for you
So sitting here alone and crying
Feeling lost without you is all I have left to do
I couldn’t keep you hanging on
Whilst I watched him die his death
So am I lost, am I alone, still staring at the phone?
Struggling with the black? Yes, yes, yes!