Questions

Was it ever really meant to be? Did you ever understand?
Did you feel the same feeling I felt inside whenever you touched my hand?
Did you hate the fact that I was on loan only yours for a little while?
Could you see the pain I felt inside or how you made me smile?
Did you hate him for getting to be the one who came home to me each night?
Did you really believe that this was fate or that it was love at first sight?
Do you think about me like I think about you does the pain twist each night in your heart?
Do you think that I will ever leave this place? That he and I will be apart?
Do you despise me now for what I did when I walked away from you?
Did you hate my family for pressurising me for making me leave what I thought was true?
Can you ever really understand how it feels to be a broken soul?
To be powerless to defend yourself to never feel as though you are whole?
Did you believe me when I wanted our perfect dream and a family with you for all time?
Because I never told you this but I was yours from the off and I thought that you would be eternally mine?
Do you know how I dream about your touch how I feel the loss each day inside?
Have you ever thought of coming here to get me and to drink all the tears I’ve cried?
Do you feel the gape inside my heart? Is this connection that we have still strong?
Because every word I said I meant from my heart. I was not stringing you along.
Do I even have the right to feel this pain? Could you ever forgive what I’ve done?
For in my heart is a regret that only I know and our time apart has only just begun.
Was the confusion I felt compounded each day as I woke up in the next room to him?
Was the passion we shared meant to be or just adultery the ultimate sin?
So do you wake in the night with my name on your lips? Do I haunt you when you are alone?
These questions inside are the only things that stop me from calling you every night on the phone.