Didn't I Die?

My head's in a blur,
I can't see around.
Where am i?
Didn't i drown?

A sharp headache,
Refuses to let me sit up.
So i lie there thinking,
How i ran out of luck.

I remember taking those pills,
And then i cut my wrists too.
Then i stood high on that bridge,
And fell toward you.

My luck was running well,
I had at least got to here.
No one interrupted me,
I was their worst fear.

And now I'm sitting here wishing,
That my friend will take me in.
Into hell I'm bound,
No-one should forgive my sin.

So I'm lying here hanging,
By a fragile single thread.
Wishing i was gone far,
Wishing i was dead.

** not quite sure what provoked this...just random thoughts..hmm
So obviously not true...very confused..it just poured out of me...
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