Nothing

Eyes wide open
in the darkest place.
"this is not where I am" I say
to myself

yet I know I am mistaken.

This is destroying me.

"It was nothing"

she says \"only a dream

"If dreams were only dreams"
I whisper "I would never..."

My own sense silences me
as she gently falls asleep.

and as the night wanes
and is closing
I close my eyes and feel nothing