Just wants my heart to stop beating do fast. . feels like i can bearly breathe. .

I'm not really depressed, nor am i sad. I just want something so bad that it's killing me from the inside; out.
& I don't know what it is..

Rain washes away the sand, showers wash away the stench, but tears wash away nothing. If only there were something to wash away what I'm feeling right now.

I really really hate myself right now. . and it feels like no-one understands. .

Because when you have everything you feel like you have nothing. And when you have nothing you feel like you could of had everything.

Blunt In My Left Hand, Pen In My Right Lets See What My Heart Speaks About Tonight .

Why the hell can't you just understand me from where I stand?

Why the hell must I force myself to bend and break at your will?

"I Use To Dream, I Use To Believe. I Tried So Hard To Suceed. But Now, Everything's Changed. Everything In My Life Has Turned A Dark Shade Of Grey,"

Oh, I'm sorry. I FORGOT I only exist to you when you need something.

"Crying is a privilege to me, cause not to many can and those who can't wish they could..."